move in the right direction

With graduation right around the corner, I realize that it's a time for new beginnings. A time to be refreshed. To move on to another part of my life. What I have begun to realize lately is that we fear to move forward into new beginnings. We fear the unknown, and we are terrified to let go of something without knowing what is ahead.

Both Christians and non-Christians are control freaks. We demand to have a hand in whatever it is we're doing, and if we don't, then we give up on it or we lose interest in it because it becomes out of our control. Selfish is what I call that.

God has been absolutely rocking my world with this idea of giving my life over to Him fully. He wants to have total control of my future, and it isn't scary to Him because He knows what is ahead. That's so unfair for Him to know without my own knowledge. But why are we so reluctant to give things over to His control? Why is it that we can't trust Him enough to do what's best for us?

In my life, I know there were certain things I was holding on to for a very long time, but after deep prayer and fasting, God revealed something so great to me. I had to let go of a part of my life that I thought was a good thing. That I thought to be destiny. It was only selfish desires and my flesh cravings.

Giving it up was my release from bondage I had been waiting for. It was the one thing that had held me down for so long. I just had to give it over to Him in order for Him to renew me and give me a new beginning. What a refreshing feeling. As scary as I thought it would be to face the unknown and let go of my own personal will and what I thought was "right" for my life, I am more excited now about God's plans because I know He has promised me great things better than what I could ever conceive in my own mind.

It's a relief to feel release in your life. The scariest thing in the whole world is to relinquish control of our future into someone else's hands. However, it could be the most propelling factor in our spiritual walk and a pivotal moment for our destiny. I encourage anyone who "thinks" they know where they are going to re-evaluate your life. Make sure your flesh isn't speaking louder than your spirit. Our heart is vain and deceiving. Listen to your spirit and let God lead you to new beginnings.

written 03.30.2008